one thing that im terrible at is giving my post its title.. seriously~~~ as you can see... this title is sooo not cool and cool.. and cool.. -___- straight forward much? ok~~ here's the thing.. i've been thinking about this for quite sometimes.. and.. i notice one thing that never change in me is that.. whenever..i have to start new classes or whatevs.. i mean... after a long hols.. then i have to start studying again (which means.. not staying at home) i'll be feeling down! and why is that??? i think i've come to my conclusion... maybe.. maybe because i was send to boarding school at a very young age.. 13 to be exact... and starting from that age onwards... i never ever enjoy starting a new semester... because..i really wanna be at home with my family.. spend more time with my parents.. and irritate my brothers.. i'm not putting blame on anyone.. its just that..i feel like saying this OUT LOUD.. and i wish after this.. i'll feel different...
and when i was in UITM Shah Alam.. EVERY WEEKEND.. without miss.. i'll come back home.. some people might say.. "eeeee... daddy's girl.." or "alaaaa.. every weekend nk balek.. x bosan ke?" ok people.. FYI... i love going back home! seriously!!!!! so.. whenever i have the chance..i'll go back.. its different when before this.. u have to stay in school and only once a while you'll be seeing your family... * why do i feel like crying? shit! and now... when asasi program give me the best thing i could ever ask for that is to stay at home for like.. ermmm.. 3 months.. i really really appreciate that! seriously...i don't go out much..just once a while with my cousins... call me pathetic..call me loser.. call me whatever because..seriously.. i don't even bother.. because.. i love it.. staying at home with my mum.. with my dad (but not always.. most of the time he's elsewhere..) and just stay in my room doing nothing...
and this is also one of the reason why i didn't apply for job over the long holiday.. because why? if i get a job.. be it in my dad's office or OU or God knows where else.. than.. i don't get to spend my day with my mum.... though we don't do much stuff.. but to know her existence somewhere in the house.. is just.. good enough..yeah..i don't help her cook..i don't help her do other stuff.. im useless in that sense..i know... and i don't want if i get back from work.. then i'll be tired... just stay in the room and do my stuff... and there goes my holiday.. so.. i decide to be a useless daughter so i can at least enjoy a full 3 months at home...
im not giving out excuses on why i didn't get myself a job.. but seriously people.. this is soooo true... seriously... whenever i have the chance to stay at home... i'll just grab whatever comes my way... regardless of what other people will say about me.. because.. they won't do me any good.. so why bother?? just live your life like you want to.. and the outcome.. should be beneficial to you... nothing to do with other people... if im happy.. than i'll continue that way.. why do i have to follow the TREND.. "get a job on long holiday!" maybe.. im different.. ahahaha... well.. its too late for this.. because i'll be starting my degree in less than a week! yaikksss... spooky much?! i know!
p/s: can somebody answer me.. will degree students be busy on weekends???? please say no.. please say noooo...
and when i was in UITM Shah Alam.. EVERY WEEKEND.. without miss.. i'll come back home.. some people might say.. "eeeee... daddy's girl.." or "alaaaa.. every weekend nk balek.. x bosan ke?" ok people.. FYI... i love going back home! seriously!!!!! so.. whenever i have the chance..i'll go back.. its different when before this.. u have to stay in school and only once a while you'll be seeing your family... * why do i feel like crying? shit! and now... when asasi program give me the best thing i could ever ask for that is to stay at home for like.. ermmm.. 3 months.. i really really appreciate that! seriously...i don't go out much..just once a while with my cousins... call me pathetic..call me loser.. call me whatever because..seriously.. i don't even bother.. because.. i love it.. staying at home with my mum.. with my dad (but not always.. most of the time he's elsewhere..) and just stay in my room doing nothing...
and this is also one of the reason why i didn't apply for job over the long holiday.. because why? if i get a job.. be it in my dad's office or OU or God knows where else.. than.. i don't get to spend my day with my mum.... though we don't do much stuff.. but to know her existence somewhere in the house.. is just.. good enough..yeah..i don't help her cook..i don't help her do other stuff.. im useless in that sense..i know... and i don't want if i get back from work.. then i'll be tired... just stay in the room and do my stuff... and there goes my holiday.. so.. i decide to be a useless daughter so i can at least enjoy a full 3 months at home...
im not giving out excuses on why i didn't get myself a job.. but seriously people.. this is soooo true... seriously... whenever i have the chance to stay at home... i'll just grab whatever comes my way... regardless of what other people will say about me.. because.. they won't do me any good.. so why bother?? just live your life like you want to.. and the outcome.. should be beneficial to you... nothing to do with other people... if im happy.. than i'll continue that way.. why do i have to follow the TREND.. "get a job on long holiday!" maybe.. im different.. ahahaha... well.. its too late for this.. because i'll be starting my degree in less than a week! yaikksss... spooky much?! i know!
p/s: can somebody answer me.. will degree students be busy on weekends???? please say no.. please say noooo...
ELF,
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3 comments:
oh you:)
ignore the lousy title
this is one super-sweet sweet post!
thumbs up fr you fr putting your family 1st:)
lol, mama. same goes to me here. i'm feeling so lazy to start ff my degree!
and i'm anxious, as to what it'll be like!
nvm, lets support each other okay?
love ya. :)
MIKKI: well.. sure hard to ignore.. ahaha.. ouh really?? thnk u... i'll be stalking ur blog then.. ahahaha..
BABY JEJE: ouh really??? same thing eyh??? thank god..i thought i yg mngada2 lbeyh~~~ at least my daughter sme dgn i..den its ok larh kowt.. ahahahhaa...good luck with ur degree hunny!!!! ermmmm... mama x bleh nk register u bcoz i'll be registering myself..and papa u the next day (which is the next day after i register) will be joining the military... so... u have to be independent! *ok..what crap am i talking here? -__-*
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